Encountering An Unexpected Thing and Challenging It

            I have ever experienced the saddest thing in my life. You know what? I almost died because I suddenly suffered a disease called “stiff” when I was in first grade in elementary school, probably like I was 6 or 7 years old. I need to tell this.

Every day, I had to move around my body because of it. I was nursed in ULIN hospital Banjarmasin for some days and I was injected with many medicines at that time. It’s ever so miserable in my lifetime. I didn’t really remember, but my mom did. My mom said that she put her index finger under my nose, that there’s no breath in it. Then she touched and tried to press slightly the pulse of my wrist, she told me that it didn’t throb anymore for a long time. After that, all of a sudden God’s miracle came up me and eventually I could be alive again. Now, I surely feel really blessed because of that. Every day, I teach myself how to be stronger every single day and work on the improvements of my passions in order to make this life more color and more meaningful even if I still have weakness in myself, but at least I try to be better and look forward by using inner eyes, not using naked eyes. When I try to encourage myself “I CAN DO IT”, it really does.

I have ever experienced another sad thing is that I accidentally got a crash at Karya Budi Utama Residence on August 11^th, 2018 at 10.40 AM, I need to remember this. It affected to some parts of my body, but I don’t want to mention them because it will make me ashamed, just my kind friends know about it. Last but not least, it made me depressed and stressed out thinking of it. On the contrary, I felt like I was tested by God how to be a grateful person even though you had body shaming.

            I challenged myself by participating myself into an agenda in my campus that was held by my lecturer of Phonology subject in which there was entertainment session at that time. I volunteered myself to be a singer and an announcer at once. That’s the way of me to look up to God that I had to do something before passing away from this world.

            It’s kind of hard for me to sing in the higher octave as my mouth can’t be wide-opened mouth at that time. On the day before the day of the agenda, I set up the preparation, I practiced singing. When I warmed up my voice with a microphone, there’s someone who mocked me so much because I couldn’t open my mouth widely and it affected to my voice. I actually wanted to infuse whistle voice in my singing as it is very high and beautiful, so it’s going to be awesome to be heard by other people. During my mouth area condition, I couldn’t sing with high head voice, let alone whistle voice. I sang two songs, in the morning, the first song was “Mine”, I sang solo, I used the techniques: chest voice, falsetto, mid-head voice, and vibrato. The second one in the afternoon was a song offered by my friend to sing duet, that was “Perfect” unfortunately I didn’t really remember the lyrics because I was not into it, I was being anxious about it, but I tried to sing along with the audience. Hahaha… I’m a quirky person and I am comfortable on stage till now.

Surprisingly, I became an announcer using English in a radio studio named RAFADA FM 107.7 in my campus. I announced for the first time exactly on Saturday/ December 28^th 2018 at 5 PM and I sang on Monday. So, before I performed at the agenda, the preceding agenda I got was announcing. I felt really blessed to have this opportunity and I did my best.

My unexpected thing frightening me turned into my expected thing by my own bravery to deal with it. Normal humans are not allowed to consider abnormal humans that “Hey... You’re supposed to do this!, You’re not supposed to do that!”, even abnormal humans are capable of doing something beyond normal humans’ capabilities. Who are you? Which one are you? Are you normal or not normal?. Luckily, now I can be normal again without considering body shaming and currently I love exercising, I love sport because it teaches me discipline and keeps my health. Thank you so much for the people who always support me in whatever I do. It really means a lot.

“Misery loves company” is the thing I must avoid because if they can’t do it doesn’t mean I can’t do it, too. That's not me. When people try to put me in their little boxes, my deep heart says "Well, I am sorry... I'm not gonna be in your little boxes, cause I'm here to move the boxes." If I CAN DO IT, I want my surroundings that I influence can do the same thing that THEY CAN DO IT, too. I’m the type of person who likes encouraging people, not discouraging them.

My point in this blog is whatever you want to be, to be nice, to be exceptional, to be different, to be popular, to be awesome, to be badass, whatsoever… Remember this!: Man is man, man is not God, it’s not that difficult to distract people’s attention to you. That there’s something useful and meaningful you have to show off to them before passing away from this world is important. Be happy! You don’t need to think about the hype that’s been going on, you just focus on what you’ve been doing, you're going to get fired up to go through obstacles and challenges in your own life. Do not focus on talking about someone’s weakness or mistakes, that’s very draining!. It’s nice to make mistakes, because we can learn something from that and we’re going to be better every single day and will arrive at the peak of perfectness of your own. You know what? “We learn nothing if we’re right all the time”. So, just do it! You gotta keep going.

Thank you so much for reading this, hopefully this blog will be useful for y’all, you may leave a comment, and I’ll see you guys in the next blog… peace😘