Jumat, 10 Januari 2020

Starting With A Dream Is Not Arrogant, But Free

Hi, you. Hopefully you're in a good state right now reading this blog. I'm going to accompany you through this. I wanna share another REAL experience of mine to inspire y'all to be BETTER, including myself. I bundle unexpected things added with surprising ones happened in the past and conclude it in one. First of all, I never have any intention of me being arrogant to share this cause I always try to be kind to people. So, make sure that you believe me!

Have you ever wondered like you wanna go to a place you really wanna visit or wanna go abroad but you felt like you're just an ordinary person that cannot make it happen?

So have I. :)
My dream is.. I wanna go international, I wanna go global..
Once someone understimated that I can't make my dream happen cause they thought like "you have no aptitude for English cause you don't have any basics of it" when you entered a university. It kind of hurt me when I thought about it and it's been reverberating. I know it's my weakness, but at the same time learning from mistakes or weaknesses has always been my strength. It made me stronger and I learned English a lot from whatever media is, afterward.

Besides that, I had been mocked or bullied or cursed when I made any mistake like a little thing that actually happenned accidentally. I'd always hoped that every mistake of mine happening accidentally was accepted by everyone cause I'd promised myself that "I have to learn from mistakes so I can know new things and be better, I wasn't born already being perfect". But some of them didn't do that. Even they shared my sh*t to others. It literally sucked. They liked putting me down and looking for my mistake.

At a time, I changed myself to be better as I was able to be called 'dilligent'. I'd been improving my English and I always learned from mistakes to be BETTER. Always working on myself. One day, I reached those goals. After that, I began to involve myself to join some competitions, and I won.

When I reached those goals, that was my first time to encounter or experience hatred from people. Some of them were jealous of me with my achievements even tried to put me down. When people see you who look perfect to them, there would be some people that will look for at least one gap of your weakness, and try to put you down. I was so sad cause I never tried to do so to them. I always tried to share kindness to them. Even they're too mean to call me 'arrogant'. I held one second and swallowed and my mind was thinking "What did you do to me? You don't even thank me". My heart was throbbing. I wasn't even afraid, I checked them a real quick by then. Lol.. I don't wanna tell this that deep. I steadied myself.

One month after that, I joined a selection of an International event (it is named International Jogja Youth Camp 2019) which was held in Jogja (Indonesia) that was attended by youths of ASEAN's countries. I was passed.. I was so proud.. It turned out I actually could make my dream of going international happen..
I was with a Malaysian in my hotel room and I all of a sudden spoke English a lot subconsciously in the whole agendas of it.

I mean, this is the right time for me to say "hey, by the way, I'm just an ordinary person with a dream but I can still make it".

A few months after that, I joined a selection of Student Mobility Program 2019. I was passed.. And of course, I was so proud. Even though it was held in Bandung and Jakarta, not in another country (because there's some students who were flight up in another country), I was still happy and really enjoying it.
After some months, some days, some hours, minutes, and seconds of bitterness tangled up on me being cursed and stereotyped as a bad and useless person. Now look! It's not me. I'm not messing up with you, you can do it, too. Let's shut 'em up!

Lesson: The best revenge for those putting you down is just being BETTER. It's not cliche.

I need to really say this:
I am just a human born to know new things from learning from mistakes so I can be a BETTER person every single day. I wasn't born already being perfect, so weren't you. I wish I am always accepted by you for accidental things cause I'm growing up and stepping up the time, too. Again, I am not already perfect, so are you.

Thank you so much for reading this, hopefully this blog will be useful for y’all, you may leave a comment, and I’ll see you guys in the next blog… peace😘

#Dream #Believe #Make_it_happen